Driving this rusty vehicle of self…

old cars, old trucks, california

One classic Buddhist image of ‘self’ is of waves in the ocean, each somehow distinct but each still entirely of the water, inseparable from it. I like to think of each of us as a local concentration of sentience, of mind, of life force. Why the universe has chosen to organize itself this way I have no idea; but I think it does — moreover, I think it’s through this manifestation that the universe expresses itself and looks to experience itself.

My Father

My father, Allen Medford Fink, died of lung cancer in 1986 at age 72. He was not an easy man. As I explained once to an adult nephew, he was our father, so we wanted to be close to him, but it could be a dangerous place to stand. He taught us to be strong. … Read more

Memory

        Memory   didn’t we kiss for the first time yesterday, on this too brief passage through the invisible gardens of time? the dogwoods   by the old dutch church drop all of their flowers at once, blanketing   the ancient graves with white for a single day each year. memory   … Read more

visitor

how strange it feels to return as a guest to this city where my children were born to sit above this frozen lake, barely a block from where she squeezed them into the world. chicago ice is harder than ice in the mountains   all blocks and harsh geometries, the cold indifference of the city. … Read more